Christmas Day is here!
I have been starving for myself for months now and I have lost so much weight. My grandparents are coming to visit and they have not seen me in ages-wow they are going to get a shock! cant believe I am out of treatment 5 months and have already lost all the weight I gained (And then some!). Despite all this, I am happy with my life, perhaps that is to do with the medication?? 
but that’s not the whole case, I actually am happy with my life, I am in a good college course, I have a good job, I have great friends and family. My mood is good too.
but that’s not the whole case, I actually am happy with my life, I am in a good college course, I have a good job, I have great friends and family. My mood is good too.BUT, I know that starving myself is not good, not good at all and it has to stop…but its really, really hard…..really hard. Whenever I do eat more, I cant keep it down! I want to be eating more, I really do, but I don’t want to gain weight and I hate feeling full. So those issues pose a little bit of a problem. I know feeling full isn’t bad and that I won’t gain too much weight….I might a little……but if anything I need to gain a bit (BMI is only 16).
I was relying on XMAS to get me out of this restriction rut….hasn’t happened-yet..it will.
The control around food needs to stop, there’s no point to it. I’m nearly in my mid twenties now, I have to cop on. I want to cop on. I want to eat.
Merry Xmas!!
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